The Sanctuary of Hope and Love


I thought that my willingness and enthusiasm brought me to The Feast. But then, I realized that god brought me to The Feast because He knew that I need direction. Yeah, that's how busy I was. Busy with my career and with my boyfriend. I didn't notice that I was lost! FINALLY, I AM HOME I was a nominal Catholic. I attended mass, participated in religious activities like processions, read the Bible when comfortable, and proclaimed myself that I did good, that I love God. But I was also prone to judging  the actions of other people. My [...]

The Sanctuary of Hope and Love2020-05-18T17:19:54+08:00



#YouAreLoved at #TheFeast Ever since I was a child, I have always been a victim of bullying. All kinds of bullying — physical, cyber, or social. Throughout my elementary years, someone would always tease me, throw stones at me, not welcome me into a group, and even make fun of me or make stories about me. Lahat ng judgments. Why? It seems like almost all the illnesses are in me — eczema, dislocation, overweight, asthma. My doctor gave me many restrictions and medications na masakit talaga sa bulsa. I felt like a burden. Many said, “Hayaan mo sila. Study [...]


Healed and Made Whole


#YouAreLoved at #TheFeast During elementary and high school years, my classmates would talk things behind my back, tease me, and hit me physically. My mom would constantly remind me to just ignore the teasing or just say sorry, but I did otherwise. WHY? Why would I ignore them? Why would I say sorry when I was the one aggrieved? For me, it did not make sense. I did not know the meaning of the term “forgiving and letting go.” All I did was scream at them or hit back at them. I found a shallow way to let go of my hurts [...]

Healed and Made Whole2019-04-02T15:58:10+08:00

A warning from a recovering Gambling Addict


#YouAreLoved at #TheFeast I am a recovering gambling addict. I started frequenting the casinos seven years ago. At first, I was only playing small time. When I would make a small profit, I would leave; or when I would lose the set budget, I would go home. But this soon started to increase and it reached a point where I had pawned my gadgets and even my car just to have funds to run after my losses. These too were all lost eventually. I have lost two high-paying jobs because I would stay in the casino for several days and sometimes [...]

A warning from a recovering Gambling Addict2019-01-21T13:21:06+08:00

In His Love


#YouAreLoved at #TheFeast Bata pa lang ako, achiever na ako sa school — always in the star section, consistent honor student, dean's lister, awards dito, awards doon. Hindi naman sa pagbubuhat ng sariling bangko, pero ako ‘yung tipo ng estudyante na pangarap ng maraming teacher — masipag, maaasahan, madaling turuan. Paborito ako ng mga kaklase na gawing ka-group at leader sa mga project. With me in the group, someone who had to maintain a certain grade to maintain her scholarship, confident sila na ‘di ko pababayaan ang grades ng grupo. With this kind of environment, I grew up having [...]

In His Love2019-01-09T15:34:06+08:00

To The Girl Who Never Knew:


#YouAreLoved at #TheFeast TO THE GIRL WHO NEVER KNEW: Hi, Besh!!! Never akong nagkaroon ng chance na sabihin sa ‘yo ang mga bagay-bagay eh, kaya dito na lang. ‘Di ko akalaing magiging close tayo. Medyo nai-intimidate nga ako sa ‘yo, pero first time na makita kita, crush na kita. Nung una, parang normal na crush lang. Pero habang tumatagal, nag-iiba eh. Lalo nung mas nakilala pa kita. Sobrang amazing mong tao. Sobrang strong mo sa life. Unti-unti kong na-realize na I was starting to like you even more. Every time na nag-uusap tayo, parang ‘di ko namamalayan ang oras. Masaya ako [...]

To The Girl Who Never Knew:2018-12-27T16:43:37+08:00

God’s Plan


#YouAreLoved at #TheFeast My ex-boyfriend cheated on me. Of course, my first questions nung time na ‘yun were: “Bakit?! Anong nangyari?! Bakit mo ginawa?! Bakit mo hinayaang mangyari?! Anong ginawa ko para lokohin mo ako?!” Usual questions na yata ‘yan ng mga taong naloloko. I wasn't ready to be cheated on. Pero mas lalong hindi ako ready sa sagot n’ya. And this was his exact words: “She made me turn to God.” Okay. So hearing those words, grabe. Hindi ko alam kung ano ba talaga dapat kong maramdaman. ‘Yung may ganitong thoughts ako: ‘Really?! Ano bang tingin mo sa akin, demonyo?! [...]

God’s Plan2018-12-17T15:21:29+08:00

Stretched Wide


#YouAreLoved at #TheFeast I remember tears rolling down my cheeks as I learned from my “mother” that I was adopted — yes, you read that right. Actually, I had hints from my “uncle” back in 2015, but I was left confused by his muddy explanation and incoherent thoughts. Racked my brain so hard to decipher what he wanted to say that time. But upon learning the truth a year after, I could finally understand why my “uncle” — who turned out to be my real father — was so nervous. A NEW REVIVAL As far as I've understood from my [...]

Stretched Wide2018-12-17T15:03:41+08:00

Deeply Loved


#YouAreLoved at #TheFeast 'Di ko akalain na sa pagsisikap kong makapag-serve kay Lord ay doon pa ako muntik nang mapahamak. I am a lay missionary. While I was assigned sa province para sa misyon na ihayag ang Salita ng Diyos, I was sexually harassed by my office head. Hindi natuloy sa rape, kasi sobrang bait ni Lord at gumawa Siya ng way para malusutan ko ang pangyayaring iyon. Pero hindi ako nakatakas sa isang bagay: trauma. Simula nung nangyari sa akin ‘yun, lagi na akong nanginginig sa takot. Since I was assigned by a reputable organization for this [...]

Deeply Loved2018-12-05T15:46:27+08:00

In His Perfect Time


#YouAreLoved at #TheFeast I believe everything happens for a reason. Reason that only God knows until it is revealed in His perfect time. I met my ex-boyfriend through a high school kabarkada in 2008. He was smart, responsible, independent, and funny. He courted me, and after six months, we became an official couple. In the third year of our relationship, as he was about to drop me off at home one night, he said something that made our relationship change its course: “I really don’t have plans of marriage.” I didn't immediately react when I heard it. I let it [...]

In His Perfect Time2018-12-05T15:49:45+08:00