#YouAreLoved at #TheFeast

Ever since I was a child, I have always been a victim of bullying. All kinds of bullying — physical, cyber, or social. Throughout my elementary years, someone would always tease me, throw stones at me, not welcome me into a group, and even make fun of me or make stories about me. Lahat ng judgments. Why? It seems like almost all the illnesses are in me — eczema, dislocation, overweight, asthma. My doctor gave me many restrictions and medications na masakit talaga sa bulsa. I felt like a burden.

Many said, “Hayaan mo sila. Study hard. You will be successful later on.” Or, “Lumaban ka. Huwag kang takot.” It hurts so badly.

High school came, yet still a wreck. Failing grades, broken friendships, bullying, failed family relationships. May rejection pa nga ni Crush. Parang lahat na lang ng kapalpakan nasa akin. I remember, during my fourth year in high school, I got a lot of failing grades. There was one quarter na nakalimang failing grades ako. Because of it, I was considered one of the “doubtful students” in our school. It means that it was unsure whether I would graduate or not. I felt so depressed that I even questioned my existence in life. Tinanong ko rin si God, “Worthy pa rin ba ako? Am I destined to suffer?”

I became an introvert and lost my self-confidence. That was the time na I began to pray harder and ‘yung manalig nang totoo sa Kanya. Unlike dati na lip service only. I even listened to Gospel songs on my phone as my way of praying to Him.

And you know what? HE ANWERED MY PRAYER! I graduated from high school! Despite my unworthiness, sinfulness, and lahat ng pagkukulang ko, He reminded me of His great, limitless, and unconditional love and mercy. Na He does not look at our sins; rather, He looks at our hearts.

As my way of thanking and giving back to Him for all He has done for me, I joined our campus ministry and also started attending The Feast when I got to college. It was also my way of making bawi sa lahat ng kasalanang nagawa ko sa Kanya. My grades got better and I also made new and good friends.

After attending The Feast for almost three years, I became a servant. I met an awesome support group that strengthen bonds together with the Lord. Unlike before where I wouldn’t be welcome into a group, I now have found a place where I feel I belong, where I am loved without judgment.

Despite all the beautiful changes, God gave me another big test. Six months ago, I was operated on due to the patellar dislocation in my right leg. It was so hard since I couldn’t move that much. I had to cancel taking the Licensure Exam for Teachers just for the operation. I was pessimistic at times because of the hardships, but that didn’t stop me from praying and having faith in Him. And God has been so faithful! He helped me survive my six months of recovery. My rehab has just finished this month. :) It was a tough journey, but God was there and He helped me make it through.

There will always be challenges, but I realized that if we pray and continue to have faith in Him whatever happens, victory will always come our way. Suffering is not our destiny. For Him, despite our imperfections, we are worthy to live a victorious life.

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  • Friday, 2 October 2020 : Book of Exodus 23:20-23.
    "See, I am sending an angel before you, to guard you on the way and bring you to the place I have prepared. Be attentive to him and heed his voice. Do not rebel against him, for he will not forgive your sin. My authority resides in him. If you heed his voice and carry […]
  • Friday, 2 October 2020 : Psalms 91(90):1-2.3-4.5-6.10-11.
    You who dwell in the shelter of the Most High, who abide in the shadow of the Almighty, Who abide in the shadow of the Almighty, Say to the LORD, "My refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I trust." For he will rescue you from the snare of the fowler, from the destroying […]
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  • Friday, 2 October 2020 : Holy Gospel of Jesus Christ according to Saint Matthew 18:1-5.10.
    The disciples approached Jesus and said, "Who is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven?" He called a child over, placed it in their midst, and said, "Amen, I say to you, unless you turn and become like children, you will not enter the kingdom of heaven. Whoever humbles himself like this child is the […]
  • Friday, 2 October 2020 : Commentary Catechism of the Catholic Church
         From the Incarnation to the Ascension, the life of the Word incarnate is surrounded by the adoration and service of angels (…) Their song of praise at the birth of Christ has not ceased resounding in the Church's praise: "Glory to God in the highest!" (Lk 2:14). They protect Jesus in his infancy, serve […]
  • Thursday, 1 October 2020 : Book of Job 19:21-27.
    Pity me, pity me, O you my friends, for the hand of God has struck me! Why do you hound me as though you were divine, and insatiably prey upon me? Oh, would that my words were written down! Would that they were inscribed in a record: That with an iron chisel and with lead […]
  • Thursday, 1 October 2020 : Psalms 27(26):7-8a.8b-9abc.13-14.
    Hear, O LORD, the sound of my call; Have pity on me, and answer me. Of you my heart speaks; you my glance seeks. Of you my heart speaks; you my glance seeks. Of you my heart speaks; you my glance seeks. Your presence, O LORD, I seek. Your presence, O LORD, I seek. Hide […]
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  • Thursday, 1 October 2020 : Holy Gospel of Jesus Christ according to Saint Luke 10:1-12.
    The Lord Jesus appointed seventy-two others whom he sent ahead of him in pairs to every town and place he intended to visit. He said to them, "The harvest is abundant but the laborers are few; so ask the master of the harvest to send out laborers for his harvest. Go on your way; behold, […]
  • Thursday, 1 October 2020 : Commentary Blessed Columba Marmion
    As the ages succeed one another, Christ leaves his Bride to accomplish a part of the prayer that he recited when on the point of offering his sacrifice. Although this prayer is of infinite efficacy, Our Lord wills us to join our own to it. One day, our Divine Savior, casting his gaze upon the […]