I thought that my willingness and enthusiasm brought me to The Feast. But then, I realized that god brought me to The Feast because He knew that I need direction.
Yeah, that’s how busy I was. Busy with my career and with my boyfriend. I didn’t notice that I was lost!
FINALLY, I AM HOME
I was a nominal Catholic. I attended mass, participated in religious activities like processions, read the Bible when comfortable, and proclaimed myself that I did good, that I love God. But I was also prone to judging the actions of other people.
My actions and thoughts didn’t align. The day came when I decided to stop my two-faced faith and be busy with my own life.
It was Sunday, I attended an event at the Philippine International Convention Center and discovered The Feast. It may look like an accident for some. But for me, it was destiny!
I decided to join The Feast.
“Finally, I found a home,” I said to myself. But not for long. Because of a busy schedule and more trials, my attendance was not consistent.
ROCK BOTTOM
This year, my longtime boyfriend and I broke up. We have been together for eleven years but our relationship didn’t survive.
My world collapsed.
It looks like overreacting, but this can happen. Especially if your world revolves around one person. Unfortunately, mine did!
I felt the pain every single day. That was my rock bottom.
STANDING UP
But when you are down, there’s no way but up, and start over again. So, I stood up. Yes, I I went back to The Feast – the home I had neglected for sometime. But even if I had been away, The Feastwelcomed me – with open arms. It became my sanctuary of hope and love.
And The Feast helped me to stand up, and start over again.
The Feast brought me to the woman I am dreaming of becoming – as a strong, passionate, and happy woman. To tell you honestly, The Feast brought me to what I actually really need – self-love.
Right now, I am still moving on. I still cry and feel sad about my failed relationship. But I see blessings this time around. Because I know God will turn my weaknesses and failures into beautiful blessings.
BLESSINGS AFTER HEARTBREAKS
Before, pride took over me when dealing with problems. Now, I am learning how to trust other people and share my burdens with a group of friends called Light Group. I became closer to my family because I started open up myself to them, too. I learned that God is the best planner of all. God knows what is best for me.
Most of all, my spiritual life continues to grow — from shallow feelings to genuine worship and prayer. And from a deceptive life to a meaningful one!
I know I am not perfect, and will never be perfect. But I have My Redeemer, always. Now that I am redirected, I will double my effort so that I can serve God more and heal others through the lessons of my brokenness.
– Fame Umali
#YouAreLoved at #TheFeast
